gUdbye 2009....

2009...

31 dec 2009..
t0day is d las day of 2009...
n it makes me think...
wut i've d0ne 4 diz yer??
wut i've achieved??
wut happened 2 me during diz years??
how bout my life???my study??

but 4 sure..
my life changed a l0t diz year...from jan-dec..
i've changed a l0t...
not only =vely but also -vely..hahaa (^_^)
study at iium...got new xpriences...
always having fun, njoy student's life..n also sum1 new in my life...
l0ts of mem0ries...sweet n also bitter...

n i realized...i made l0ts of mistakes...
dunno how 2 describe...
i felt so guilty...im s0rry...

but..d m0st challenging in 2009 is starting a new relationship.. (",)
it gve me l0ts of epiness..fun..experiences...
l0ts of mem0ries...bez m0ments...n also sadness..!!
having sum1 dat we luv d m0st is so difficult n challenging...
but 4 sure...its my new life n0w..
n 4 me..understanding n respect each others r d keys of epiness...
im really wish we r meant 2 b t0gether...h0pefully...
h0pe it will b my epi ending st0ry...lalalaaa~

my study??
wut i can say...im so satisfied...
c0z its better than b4...

10s Allah 4 my great life n great year...
really2 grateful...Alhamdulillah...

gudbye 2009.....~

:: c0untdown~ 9m0nths to go.... ::

it started when he texted me...
to inform me dat he g0t an offer to further his study in strathclyde, sc0tland...
meaning dat he will leave me here...in 3yers..such a l0ng..long time 4 me...
at d beginning, i was so epi...yup...epi 4 him..
i was so pr0ud of him...
finally his dream bcame true..

but, suddenly i felt so sad...
sad when i think wut my life would be without him??
im so scared....worried...
can i trust him..??can he convinces me dat he will never 4get me??
no gurl xcept me??
wut will b happened 2 me??
i keep thinking..wut,y,how...???arghhh...!!!headache...
but he told me dat n0thin' 2 worry...


9 m0nths to go...
n now..i realized...
time is getting shorter..
i wish i can spend my time with him..
we must spend,enjoy our valuable time now...
xnk saket2 ati dh..xnk mrajuk2..ambik ati...
no more quarrel...no m0re sad..juz epi...
yup..i wish i could....

n n0w..
im counting my days...
counting d time left dat we can spend 2gether...
i wish i can b str0ng...
do pray 4 me...him..n us~

juz an ordinary gurl..

i've my own life..

i cant make people around me epi with my own way..

i cant always make them epi with me..

yup..i knw i must think bout d others but plz give me sum space..

i need 2 b alone..2 think..

but sumtimes i need 2 b loved..i need people 2 b around me..

yup..i admit..im so stubborn..always b a trouble maker..

nvr think bout d consequences..d effects..

cant tolerate with d others..i admit...dats all my fault....

its d real me..!!

but plz..

plz understand me...

cuz im juz an ordinary gurl..4 sure..!!

bring back my happiness...

i feel l0st..

empty...

im n0t ok..

so plz..bring back my happiness

out of m0od... T_T

n0thin' 2 do..

n0thin' 2 say..

wut i feel now...

juz sad..empty..upset..

n0 mood at all :-(

♥♥ :: L..O..V..E :: ♥♥

to my love...
..................................................................................
10s 4 ur luv..n d way u treat me..
10s 4 luving me..concerned n care bout me,myself..
i luv u so much my dear..
u r my everythin'...
i dun care wut people said b0ut u...
cuz i knw who u r...
only u in my heart...
nothin' can change my luv 4 u..
really luv u~
..................................................................................

luv..luv..luv..
hope we'll b together..
do pray 4 us k..

n0thin' to worry..u r my only..
luv is in d air~ (",)

B.I.G Camp~ such a great experience... (",)~

it such a great experience 4 me n also my frenz..
yeah~
really enjoy 3days/2nite there.. (13-15 nov 2009)
d m0st njoyable xtvt is jungle trekking..haha~
kne harungi 4 or 5 sg b4 spai kt tmpt 2..
n d bez part,time kt waterfall..hehee~
usyar c0uple duk mndi..hahaa..n0tty..!!
so tired..but really njoy n it was fun..!!

1st day~ n0thin' much xtvt...bese2 jek...but at night..hahaa...nite walk n also jungle trekking at nite..
can u imagine..?? from 9.30pm-3.30am..for 6hrs..wow~ cm xcaye..finally b'jaye jgak spai..
sgt2 b'syukur...

2nd day~ must complete 6xtvties from morning 2 evening..
really tired..exhausted..
plg bez..of c0z flying fox..lalalaa...
it was so high..kne pnjt2 pkok...lalu kt titi..jmbtn gntung..mcm2 laa...sgt2 laa tggi..
n d bez part time nk trun..fuhh...b'jaye trun ngn b'gaye..haha~
w/out any 'bunyi'..x jrit lgsg...berani x??hee..
then kne swing laa..lalu kt titi bwh ade air laa...mcm2 laa lg..n dpt plak grup yg happening n plg bez..wo0oo~
at nite...kne wat replika bngunan..like mosque,school,tower etc..
my grup kne wat kwsn pnempatan..
we built houses, kondo, recreation park etc..so fun..!!

last day~ jungle trekking again...from 8.30am until 4.30pm
perghh..pnt gle..nek bkt,trun bkt,then nek lg..adehh..
plg x thn nk trun kne wat slide..c0mot gle..!!da laa 2X jat0h sbb ksut licin,da pnuh ngn selut..
then slide gaye nk brenang..!!! ntah pape faci 2..iktkan ati nk jek ktuk kpala die 2..!!huh..!!
tp mnarek..
kne mgharungi 4 sg (if im not mistaken laa..)
then lastly kne msk sndri...juz dpt beras,aym,sardin,kledek...
klaka gle time nk nyalakan api time nk msk..hahaa~
my partner, fara b'tgkus lumus tiup n kipas api...finally kt0rg mabuk asap..
hahaa..byk sgt asap msuk..huk2..
da laa ngn pacat byk..1st time tgk n knl pacat..hehee~
luckily x kne pacat..org len m0stly kne..b'syukur..
wlaupn x sdap lgsg tp sbb lapa..sume licin..!!hahaa~

but it such a wonderful m0ments..
great experience 4 me..
to well-prepared to be a tcher in future..
hee.. (",)

starts sumthin' new...new life begins...

epi...yeah im epi rite now...
wit new spirit..new hope...new life...
juz 4get d past..
although it was so hurt...
bc0z we need each other..
10s dear 4 ur supp0rt...

yup..sumtimes we need sum space in our life..
need 2 b alone...it doesnt mean we ignore each other..
but we need sum space...2 b al0ne...
2 take sum time..2 think wuts wrong,wuts d pr0b ac2ly...

'no 1 eva gonna luv u more than i do..'
yeah..dats very true dear...10s 4 ur luv...ur concerned...10s 4 everythin'...
hope our dreams will bcome true..insyaAllah...
lets find our hepiness 2gether...
h0pe we'll b 2gether... hee~

new life begins (",)
u..n me...us..

im juz waiting 4 a better day..

when i was still young...i always hear pple say bout life...
'idup nih cm r0da..kdg2 kte kt ats,kdg2 kte kt bwh..'
yup...its true....

bt sumtimes its so hard 2 us 2 g0 through our life...
esp when we feel down...hurt...sad...stress...etc...
but im not a strong enough...2 accept all these..

"y is it everytime i try
it always come back as a lie.."
~juz a simple phrase but its so meaningful..

i always feel al0ne..empty..hurt..
like n0body care bout me anym0re..
every1 seems like bz with their own life..
esp pple dat i luv d m0st (my sis,frenz...n him...)
2 u....knp kte da x mcm dlu..??
i really miz d old u...ehmm... =(

c0z i knw i'll b fine 1 day...
im juz waiting 4 a better day...
yeahh...when d time c0mes...
still keep waiting....ehmm...

im back..yeah~

da lame x b'blog neh..hehee...

bz with my part time job at 1 of da fasfud restaurant at alamanda...

im so hepi..lots of xperience there....with nice n funny frenz there....

d caring manager..bez....u all mmg bez laa....

if ade ms free...i'll visit all of u k..hehee...

tHaNks 4 bEinG My fReNz...

friendship.....a very unique,interesting word...
n of c0z have a very strong meaning n so meaningful...
frenz...sum1 who very closed and always be with us in all situations,also condition...
n0t only a frenz, but also as a gud listener,motivator,advisor...



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i really appreciate my friendship...
since i was in preschool...until now...
i already met many frenz n i really hepi with them....
lots of memories we shared 2gether...sweet or bitter...epi or sad...
always in my mind...how sweet d friendship...yeah~

started in preschool...my frenz~ana,ain,ika,jimmy,harun etc....
in primary school...~my frenz in preschool,lekha,farhan,fai,apiz,natt,fana,faruq,tetty etc...
2ndary school....i've 3 2ndary schools...of c0z i've l0ts of frenz...but i really hep,njoy my skul time when i was in f3..
natt,tetty,nisah,hasu,zu,jirah,ain,ana,zarith,nani,liza...
bariq,faruq,aziz,fuad,hazwan,syukri,at0ks etc...
u all bez~
i remembered all d m0ments with all of u...hurm..if i can turn d time back...
i knw m0st of u said "aziah 2 smbong gle kan skrg...ajk kua pn ssh,reunion pn slalu x g..."
im s0rry frenz...i've my own reason...sorry...
but, i really apreciate my friendship in sbpim...
2 my bloved frenz...syairah...
10s a l0t...u r a gud frenz 2 me there...but...{i cant cntinue my writing bout her... =( }

but...everythin' changed when i entered my college...
ipgm kpm..yeah~
i met fieqa,aya,m0on,izi,kaksu,fara,mcna,sheni,manje,lin,ainatul,diana,seph,qila..n rmai lg..
u taught me bout d real life..10s a lot...
how amazing u r...im so0ooo hepi with all of u...
but every1 made mistakes...if i did sumthin' wrong or even hurt u...plz 4gve me dear...
i really h0pe our friendship will flow smoothly,enjoyable n never change...yeah...h0pefully....
friendship never dies....

to fieqa...
10s 4 ur support...ur advices...etc...
10s 4 everythin' dear....
u r so gud 2 me...so caring..

to ** ******
10s 4 everythin'.....
im so hepi 2 b ur frenz...
10s 4 ur help,advices,opinion...
10s 4 ur care...da way u treat me b4..
owh..how sweet... ;p
although 'kte da x mcm dlu'...
but i really appreciate u...dulu,ini dan slamanya...
n im so sorry if i've made sumthin' dat make u hate me... =(
i can feel it...

2 all my frenz....

:: 10s 4 being my gud frenz...frenz 4eva... ::

y me...???

i always have pr0bs 2 start my writing..since skul i think...

until now i still face d same...can sumb0dy tell me y..??

but 4 sure...i write diz bc0z i feel so0oo sad...

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i've read 1 of my frenz's bl0g juz now...

i really njoy it but..suddenly sumthin' caught my eyes...

i feel so sad...its really hurt...its not da 1st time...

i always feel d same but i told myself...'b str0ng aziah..b str0ng...n str0ng k...'

but ble da slalu sgt....spai 1 thap cm dh xleh nk trima dh...da lame sgt 'tahan'...

its not my frenz's fault....but...ehmmm...dunno laa...dunno wut 2 say...

n also dunno how 2 xpress my feeling rite now...

sdeh...kecewa...hiba...n0body's kn0ws b0ut diz...including my frenz...

mayb myself shud b blamed....bc0z i knw myself...im s0 snsitive....easily hurt....

n cant control my emotion...u will always see me 'smile' n 'laugh'...n u can say dat im d cheer person...hepi-go-lucky...always njoy my life everytime,everyday...

but n0body's knows wut's inside my heart....n i really wan 2 out from diz situation...

'new life...new h0pe...new everything...' its only d words...every1 can say it....

but,i faced it...n0body understands me,myself....n y i must face all diz??y me...???y..????

now..i keep waiting to out from diz...yeah...i'll wait...

when im b0red.....

ac2ly im not a gud writer....hehee...
but...im b0red rite now...dunno wut 2 write,wut 2 put here...
n0thin' in my mind...'otakku beku'..huuu~
lbh beku dri air batu yg tlh sdia m'bku dlm fridge kt umah jiran aku...
plan 2 go out diz evening but the weather lak cm x mgizinkn...
arghhh...keb0sanan melanda dri....
nk keje..wana earn sum m0ney during diz h0liday but xtaw laa nk keje pe...
ingt nk mintk kije ngn mr. cher...
gaji agk lumayan la...
would u like 2 join me???
hahaha...

ehmmm...suddenly...t'igt kt sum1...
sapekah die...??die 2 sape..??
hahaa....
to die...


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:: mIsSing U iS n0t a gAme 2 pLay...
mIsSiNg U iS n0t a w0rd 2 sAy...
mIsSiNg U dOesNt staRt tOday n eNd tOmOrRow...
mIsSiNg U iS a pAin dAt I fEeL eVeRyDay... ::

c0ba....

dunno y diz song suddenly crossed my mind...
n i try 2 find d lyric...i read n try 2 understand wuts all ab0ut...
n i f0und sumthin'..yeah~
its related 2 my life...n i feel diz song is very suitable 4 me now...
sum of d lyric cm ade kne mgena ngn my situation rite now..ehmm..


Faizal Tahir - Cuba

Cuba kau dengar
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
Tuk berbicara dengan kamu
Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hati
Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu

Cuba kau lihat
Cuba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihatmu
Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
Dalam diri
Dan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu

Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar..
Untuk kau melihat ke mataku

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu

MeLakA 0wh MeLakA.....

if u ask me...wuts my opinion bout mlaka???

n my answer...of c0z...i luv mlaka...hahaa...

dun ask me y...if u wanna knw..do visit mlaka or stay in mlaka 4 a while..

n u can hv d answer..yeah~

ac2ly...i miss mlaka rite now...(ceh...p0yo..bru duk umh 4 a week..hahaa)

miz my campus..all my lec..my frenz...my room there...n miss my bed badly...heee~

lots of memories..luv da moments there...also learn bout d real life there...ehmm..

bt i dunno hows my life will be..in d nex sem..mayb we'll b separated..owh, no..!!!

dun want..dun want...!!!!

wut i can say...i miz my life b4...my life at ipgm kpm..mayb u'll laugh rite...

but i dun care...diz is wut i feel now...but my mum said its ok...final yer all of us will c0me back there...hehee..10s ma..luv u~hehee... ;p

n 2m0row..

nk g mlaka..yeay~

ac2ly my sis dpt intevw 4 ppismp-english kt mktb 2...

so...pe lg..so excited nk g mktb isnin nnt...

cant wait 2 c kakna,kak fifi...n d others...
to my sis, alin...wish u all da bez...nnt kalo b'jaya,jgn x g lak...

las yer dh tolak offer kt ipik...ish3...pe nk jd..huhuu~

sHarIng iS cArIng..

juz wanna share 1 msg i've received from my frenz...

"kdg2 kte x sdar, org yg kte x peduli, syg gle kt kte..

kdg2 kte x sdar, kte t'lampau syg kt ss0rg sdangkan die slalu saketkan ati kte..

dan kte x prnah sdar, kte bknnye sempurna utk mndptkn org yg btol2 sempurna dlm idup kte..

dan kte bknnye sp2 utk buat org mnyayangi kte mcm kte syg kt die...

sbb kte..bkn laa sbaek yg d cari...kte hnya manusia biasa..."

my dream bc0mes true..yeah...~

ehmm...diz is my 1st trial...ac2ly i keep waiting 4 a l0ng time 2 create my own bl0g...but...so0oo bz with my study life...n n0w...finally..i've my own bl0g..yeah~10s 2 my bl0ved frenz, afiqah..u've made my dream bc0mes true..n now i already came out with my own blog...yeahhh~