gUdbye 2009....

2009...

31 dec 2009..
t0day is d las day of 2009...
n it makes me think...
wut i've d0ne 4 diz yer??
wut i've achieved??
wut happened 2 me during diz years??
how bout my life???my study??

but 4 sure..
my life changed a l0t diz year...from jan-dec..
i've changed a l0t...
not only =vely but also -vely..hahaa (^_^)
study at iium...got new xpriences...
always having fun, njoy student's life..n also sum1 new in my life...
l0ts of mem0ries...sweet n also bitter...

n i realized...i made l0ts of mistakes...
dunno how 2 describe...
i felt so guilty...im s0rry...

but..d m0st challenging in 2009 is starting a new relationship.. (",)
it gve me l0ts of epiness..fun..experiences...
l0ts of mem0ries...bez m0ments...n also sadness..!!
having sum1 dat we luv d m0st is so difficult n challenging...
but 4 sure...its my new life n0w..
n 4 me..understanding n respect each others r d keys of epiness...
im really wish we r meant 2 b t0gether...h0pefully...
h0pe it will b my epi ending st0ry...lalalaaa~

my study??
wut i can say...im so satisfied...
c0z its better than b4...

10s Allah 4 my great life n great year...
really2 grateful...Alhamdulillah...

gudbye 2009.....~

:: c0untdown~ 9m0nths to go.... ::

it started when he texted me...
to inform me dat he g0t an offer to further his study in strathclyde, sc0tland...
meaning dat he will leave me here...in 3yers..such a l0ng..long time 4 me...
at d beginning, i was so epi...yup...epi 4 him..
i was so pr0ud of him...
finally his dream bcame true..

but, suddenly i felt so sad...
sad when i think wut my life would be without him??
im so scared....worried...
can i trust him..??can he convinces me dat he will never 4get me??
no gurl xcept me??
wut will b happened 2 me??
i keep thinking..wut,y,how...???arghhh...!!!headache...
but he told me dat n0thin' 2 worry...


9 m0nths to go...
n now..i realized...
time is getting shorter..
i wish i can spend my time with him..
we must spend,enjoy our valuable time now...
xnk saket2 ati dh..xnk mrajuk2..ambik ati...
no more quarrel...no m0re sad..juz epi...
yup..i wish i could....

n n0w..
im counting my days...
counting d time left dat we can spend 2gether...
i wish i can b str0ng...
do pray 4 me...him..n us~

juz an ordinary gurl..

i've my own life..

i cant make people around me epi with my own way..

i cant always make them epi with me..

yup..i knw i must think bout d others but plz give me sum space..

i need 2 b alone..2 think..

but sumtimes i need 2 b loved..i need people 2 b around me..

yup..i admit..im so stubborn..always b a trouble maker..

nvr think bout d consequences..d effects..

cant tolerate with d others..i admit...dats all my fault....

its d real me..!!

but plz..

plz understand me...

cuz im juz an ordinary gurl..4 sure..!!

bring back my happiness...

i feel l0st..

empty...

im n0t ok..

so plz..bring back my happiness

out of m0od... T_T

n0thin' 2 do..

n0thin' 2 say..

wut i feel now...

juz sad..empty..upset..

n0 mood at all :-(

♥♥ :: L..O..V..E :: ♥♥

to my love...
..................................................................................
10s 4 ur luv..n d way u treat me..
10s 4 luving me..concerned n care bout me,myself..
i luv u so much my dear..
u r my everythin'...
i dun care wut people said b0ut u...
cuz i knw who u r...
only u in my heart...
nothin' can change my luv 4 u..
really luv u~
..................................................................................

luv..luv..luv..
hope we'll b together..
do pray 4 us k..

n0thin' to worry..u r my only..
luv is in d air~ (",)

B.I.G Camp~ such a great experience... (",)~

it such a great experience 4 me n also my frenz..
yeah~
really enjoy 3days/2nite there.. (13-15 nov 2009)
d m0st njoyable xtvt is jungle trekking..haha~
kne harungi 4 or 5 sg b4 spai kt tmpt 2..
n d bez part,time kt waterfall..hehee~
usyar c0uple duk mndi..hahaa..n0tty..!!
so tired..but really njoy n it was fun..!!

1st day~ n0thin' much xtvt...bese2 jek...but at night..hahaa...nite walk n also jungle trekking at nite..
can u imagine..?? from 9.30pm-3.30am..for 6hrs..wow~ cm xcaye..finally b'jaye jgak spai..
sgt2 b'syukur...

2nd day~ must complete 6xtvties from morning 2 evening..
really tired..exhausted..
plg bez..of c0z flying fox..lalalaa...
it was so high..kne pnjt2 pkok...lalu kt titi..jmbtn gntung..mcm2 laa...sgt2 laa tggi..
n d bez part time nk trun..fuhh...b'jaye trun ngn b'gaye..haha~
w/out any 'bunyi'..x jrit lgsg...berani x??hee..
then kne swing laa..lalu kt titi bwh ade air laa...mcm2 laa lg..n dpt plak grup yg happening n plg bez..wo0oo~
at nite...kne wat replika bngunan..like mosque,school,tower etc..
my grup kne wat kwsn pnempatan..
we built houses, kondo, recreation park etc..so fun..!!

last day~ jungle trekking again...from 8.30am until 4.30pm
perghh..pnt gle..nek bkt,trun bkt,then nek lg..adehh..
plg x thn nk trun kne wat slide..c0mot gle..!!da laa 2X jat0h sbb ksut licin,da pnuh ngn selut..
then slide gaye nk brenang..!!! ntah pape faci 2..iktkan ati nk jek ktuk kpala die 2..!!huh..!!
tp mnarek..
kne mgharungi 4 sg (if im not mistaken laa..)
then lastly kne msk sndri...juz dpt beras,aym,sardin,kledek...
klaka gle time nk nyalakan api time nk msk..hahaa~
my partner, fara b'tgkus lumus tiup n kipas api...finally kt0rg mabuk asap..
hahaa..byk sgt asap msuk..huk2..
da laa ngn pacat byk..1st time tgk n knl pacat..hehee~
luckily x kne pacat..org len m0stly kne..b'syukur..
wlaupn x sdap lgsg tp sbb lapa..sume licin..!!hahaa~

but it such a wonderful m0ments..
great experience 4 me..
to well-prepared to be a tcher in future..
hee.. (",)

starts sumthin' new...new life begins...

epi...yeah im epi rite now...
wit new spirit..new hope...new life...
juz 4get d past..
although it was so hurt...
bc0z we need each other..
10s dear 4 ur supp0rt...

yup..sumtimes we need sum space in our life..
need 2 b alone...it doesnt mean we ignore each other..
but we need sum space...2 b al0ne...
2 take sum time..2 think wuts wrong,wuts d pr0b ac2ly...

'no 1 eva gonna luv u more than i do..'
yeah..dats very true dear...10s 4 ur luv...ur concerned...10s 4 everythin'...
hope our dreams will bcome true..insyaAllah...
lets find our hepiness 2gether...
h0pe we'll b 2gether... hee~

new life begins (",)
u..n me...us..

im juz waiting 4 a better day..

when i was still young...i always hear pple say bout life...
'idup nih cm r0da..kdg2 kte kt ats,kdg2 kte kt bwh..'
yup...its true....

bt sumtimes its so hard 2 us 2 g0 through our life...
esp when we feel down...hurt...sad...stress...etc...
but im not a strong enough...2 accept all these..

"y is it everytime i try
it always come back as a lie.."
~juz a simple phrase but its so meaningful..

i always feel al0ne..empty..hurt..
like n0body care bout me anym0re..
every1 seems like bz with their own life..
esp pple dat i luv d m0st (my sis,frenz...n him...)
2 u....knp kte da x mcm dlu..??
i really miz d old u...ehmm... =(

c0z i knw i'll b fine 1 day...
im juz waiting 4 a better day...
yeahh...when d time c0mes...
still keep waiting....ehmm...