i need sum1 to cheer me up.

i feel dizzy when im writing diz. .

nmun ku gagah kn jua~ ;p

tetibe dmam la plak. .xpe. .ni sume ujian drNya. .

ac2ly i feel sad. . .owhhh, sick! y??

i dunno y. . T_T

wut i can say. . .

i really2 need sum1 to cheer me up!

to make me smile again. . . . .

owhh. . . . .plzzzz~ =.=

to IB...

i knw u r having fun rite now with sum other frenz. . . .

sheffield~london~paris. . . .n pasni xtaw lak mn. . . .

but. . . .

u dun knw wut im feeling rite now. . .

ok. .juz njoy urself k!

no need 2 think bout me. . .

have fun! =(

he's away!

29/09/2010

wednesday

9.20pm

owhh....

hope n really wish sgt2 tabah utk hdapi arini... :(

hope x sdey sgt n nanges..

sbb da jnji xley nanges... =.=

p/s~ hv a safe journey incik bf...take care!

2 ari lg....

arini dh isnin...mknenye tggl 2 ari je lg...

n smakin trase sgt2... ;(

owhhh...cmne nk mghadapi nih??

2 sum pple, 2ta0n xlame...tp bg aku..lame sgt2!

lameeee....!!!

xley nk bygkn how my life would b aftr diz...

ble t'igt sume memories n d moments tgether...

argghhhh!!

cmne nih....:(

my mum said...

nnt duk sdey2 jgn x blaja plak...

ntah blaja ke mn...asek duk sdey jek..

2 taon 2 jap jek...

tp ma...2 taon tu lame....=.=

2 incik bf....

i'll b rite here waitin' 4 u....=.=

p/s~ thnx 4 dat flower....;)

i ♥ my family!!!

1st day pOse....rs sdehh..

all my famly mmber suddenly crossed my mind..

My bloved dad~ En. Ali

My luvly mum~ Pn. Zainab

My siblings~ Kak+Abg Padil, Abg+Kak Jue, Akak+Abg Faizal, my sis Alin n Fakhira..

My nieces n nephew~ Kakak Meera, Boboy, Haziqah, Baby Alya, Baby Aisy.......

i mis u badly!!! ╥_╥

i jus want 2 tell all of u dat i really,really ♥ u......

Y..O..U =.=

because of you i have a reason to smile

i wanted to see you but you said you will be away for a while

when will you come back to me?

to be mine forever??

so we can hold each other while we sleep...

im thinking of you every night

wishing that i can hold you tight

no matter what happened in my heart is where you'll be

the day you come back to me promise me you will never leave....

missed..

I miss you

it hurts to think ofeverything we went through

I wish you could see my heart

I hate that we're apart

I cry for your touch

Baby i miss you so much

you've changed into someone i dont know

Remember when you told me you'd never let go?

What happened between you and i

I wish i could rewind time

and make you mine

But theres no way of getting you back

and now your just one thing in life that i lack

I dont know why things are like this

but i just wanted to tell you that its you that i really miss... :(

jap ok..jap x...

aishh...

npe laa jd cmni..

jap sht,jap x..

dh lame dh cmni...

jap rs ok,jap x...

da pnt mkn ubt..

xlrt dh cmni...

sy mau sht....

Ya Allah....ujian apekah ini??

kurniakan lah ksihatan kpd hamba-Mu ini.....

aminnn....

.......stop

i look up

as a tear rolls slowly

down my cheek...

i think about better days

and wonder if i'll feel that way again...

owh tears...

plz stop dropping...

plz stay away from me...

missing.....

No words I write can ever say,

How much I miss you every day.

As time goes by the loneliness grows,

How I miss you... nobody knows.

I think of you in silence,

I often speak your name.

But all I have are memories,

And a photo in a frame.

No one knows my sorrow,

No one sees me weep.

But the love I have for you,

Is in my heart and mine to keep.

I never stopped loving you,

I don't think I ever will.

Deep inside my heart,

You are with me still.

Heartaches in this world are many,

But mine is worse than any.

My heart still aches as I whisper low,

"I need you... and miss you so."

The things we feel so deeply,

Are often the hardest things to say.

But I just can't keep quiet anymore,

So I'll tell you anyway.

There is a place in my heart,

That no one else can fill.

I love you... and I always will...

untitled....

as a silent tear

ran down d cheek...

the memories ran

and the moments walked...

through d mind...

im too big to cry~

I never stopped to realize How lonely I would be I never thought the day would come When you'd grow tired of me Your voice was never sweeter Than the day you said goodbye You'll never know how much it hurts Because I'm too big to cry If I knew then what I know now You'd still be kissing me Instead there's someone else's lips Where mine used to be I say hello and wish you well Each time I pass you by But you'll never know how much it hurts Because I'm too big to cry You never looked so wonderful As the day you walked away I used to say, "I love you" But that I could not say I can't forget you darlin' No matter how much I try You'll never know how much it hurts Because I'm too big to cry

its over..yup!

18 may 2010..

its over!

today....14/5....

14th may 2009...

i met u 4 d 1st time...

at sumwhere..n doing sumthing...owh..

stil rmembr d 1st place where i met u n u waited 4 me..

c0z everyday i saw d place..walk around there...

n.....i smile.... ;))

n t0day...its about a year i met u..

b frenz with u...

share evrything with u...

but now...y i feel 'sumthing'??

yup...we r like @#$%$#@&*...???

d end..

so sick!!

..........im so sick of CRYING...

so tired of TRYING...

yup,im SMILING..

but...inside..

im DYING~ -_-

S~O~R~R~Y....

im really s0rry..

xtaw npe sume nih bleh jd cmni....

but..wut i wan u 2 knw dat...i dun hate u...bkn mrh....bkn bengang...

wut i can say..juz sdey~ =(

i sdey sgt...knp cmni?? its like im n0body...

y didnt u try 2 understand me??

try 2 understand my situation??

wut i feel now..

e..m..p..t..y~

s..o..r..r..o..w~

s0rry...im not ok,key...

so..its up 2 u nk pk pe pn...

im s0o0oo tired...

da pnt ngn sume ni.... -_-

againnn...

i wanna cry.. =(

but i think...

no need 2 waste my tears juz bc0z of dat...

its enough...

but..i cant...

wish im str0ng... (-_-)

saya mau nanges...

sdehnye...
knp nih..??
nk nanges...huhuu~
can sum1 lend me ur shoulder??
i wanna cry...ehhmmm....

sy rs sdeh..
sy kcewa...
sy da x kuat...
sy da x tabah...
sy da xblh sbr...
sy da x thn cmni...
sy mau nanges..... =(

h0peless....

im s0o0o tired...

s0o0o sick of diz...

da x sggup cmni...

frust...dissapp0inted..kcewa yg amt~

yup...

we need sum time 2 calm down...

t0 think wuts d pr0b ac2ly...

t0 solve d pr0b...

but i think its en0ugh 4 me now..

we cant b as epi as b4...

da xleh jd cm dlu..

h0peless...

i've n0body.... =(

there r so0oo many things on my mind rite now..

im so stress....em0~

wut shud i do??

wut shud i tell??

2 whom shud i tell everything??

i really need sum1 rite now..

2 cheer me up..

but..

its sad when d 1 who we luv d m0st is like has been far from us now, rite..??

its s0o sad when 'he' never understand us...

its like i've no one, nob0dy 2 listen 2 me..

2 share everything esp when i feel not comfort..

not so epi...or sad of c0z..

n0 one like 2 hear bout my prob...

can any1 lend me ur ears juz 4 a while..??

any1..???plz....

:: c0untdown~ 9m0nths to go.... ::

it started when he texted me...
to inform me dat he g0t an offer to further his study in strathclyde, sc0tland...
meaning dat he will leave me here...in 3yers..such a l0ng..long time 4 me...
at d beginning, i was so epi...yup...epi 4 him..
i was so pr0ud of him...
finally his dream bcame true..

but, suddenly i felt so sad...
sad when i think wut my life would be without him??
im so scared....worried...
can i trust him..??can he convinces me dat he will never 4get me??
no gurl xcept me??
wut will b happened 2 me??
i keep thinking..wut,y,how...???arghhh...!!!headache...
but he told me dat n0thin' 2 worry...


9 m0nths to go...
n now..i realized...
time is getting shorter..
i wish i can spend my time with him..
we must spend,enjoy our valuable time now...
xnk saket2 ati dh..xnk mrajuk2..ambik ati...
no more quarrel...no m0re sad..juz epi...
yup..i wish i could....

n n0w..
im counting my days...
counting d time left dat we can spend 2gether...
i wish i can b str0ng...
do pray 4 me...him..n us~